Okay! its been more than a month since my last post but heck hahaha. dont feel like blogging anymore so! wanted to delete this but cos it has memories and reminds me of how gross i was, i am not going to delete it but leave in the cyber space, free to roam. heehee. bye folks.

erm hello this is post one seven nine but i dont like this number so im going to post one again now.

sakura's.

Its time i moved.

something new.

hello everybody.

only time.

& I found out she has the same birthday as me. I suddenly feel a new affinity but its so near yet so far. so close but not at all. I've only met her once but somehow I just can't forget this. We were babies born on the same day. )=

I suddenly feel so paranoid everytime I'm not with Ben, or when my mum is not yet home, whenever i cross the road, see the road or things like that. I know of many incidents. My ex-boyfriend's cousin's family, another of his cousin, the two in the newspaper recently and sher's friend. It is somehow so surreal. It's such a cruelty in life and I can't bring myself to believe it all. And I'm always hoping it's not true and they were just lying. But I know it is not? I don't like this. At all. Not so much of losing someone but the cause in this case. Why? )= May they all be in peace and happiness. I love Ben and I don't ever want to lose him. I love my mum and I don't ever want to lose her. I love my sisters, Athena, Almeta and Crystal and I don't ever want to lose them. I love my grandma and I don't wanna lose her anytime soon. T_T I love my aunts and i don't wanna lose them anytime soon either. I love my uncle and cousins and I don't wanna lose them. I love Sherlyn, Serene, Wei Xian, Lina and Huiyu and I don't want to lose them. I love Phoebe, Michael, Nicholas and I dont want to lose them. I love my classmates in poly and I dont want to lose them. And I mean it. Please.

Ousz!

Sherlyn's inspiration comes from books and films. I think mine comes from anime. LOL Hataraki Man has inspired me. I loved that show. I'm quite sure music also inspires us, though. At least, for me. Tokyo Marble Chocolate was also very interesting. About love. But i guess, curiousity is my favourite. Asking questions. Yes, curiousity kills the cat, because some things are better off being unknown. Surely, it is better being curious than not at all? YES. Maturity was never easy. Could we study philosophy? (= But anyway, some anime arent all that worthless you know. Some anime characters really inspire you to be the same as them with those positive energy and attitude of theirs. Sherlyn must be the only friend I know to have gone through so much and still be cheerful =o=. I never said I loved life, but Ben tells me to not be so hateful towards life and love it cos it has him in it! Aww ^_^ Oh, we all have to go through bakabaka things in life. Reality sucks. I guess we all have to try :[ Que sera sera? We are freaking growing up! There's no time left! Carpe diem.. not exactly easy to do as to type it out. No time to be carefree. I've always wanted to nice and simple life with no worries.Probably impossible eh. Luxury is but Luxury. Isn't it the simple things in life that make you happy? Its the small things that counts. Yea, small, simple things make me happy, happiest.

HEART STATION.

I changed my mac's topcase! woohoo. Took 3 hours to change one topcase? -_- so i went back to school and went back again when its time to collect it. tiny crack at the side is now cracked no more! (= But, but, I'm scared of growing up! I don't know why it makes me slightly, and just so slightly uncomfortable at the thought of people my age getting driver's licenses and cars. Zomg.