is it me or am i hungry?

feeling slightly better i think fever has gone down some. from that high thing to 38.4 and now its 37 point something. cool (: bored to stay in bed gahh. thanks mumsie for some food, big sis for the iced honey water & crystal for coming in to accompany me and talk for 3minutes and saying stop doing this stop doing that and getting wet towel for me. thanks benny for msging me when ur'e out LOL. (:

MUKYA!

hey guys and girls! this it it (: morning- 37.6, sorethroat, headache and backache. went to tampines mall with family for brekkie & grocery shopping. work early @ 11 30am. told sales rep not feeling well going home @ 2plus. went home @ 4 30pm. 38.9 then slept. woke, 39.1, im going to cool off with a bath peeps. ahh~ Me back! *ache* AND OH YA, I SLIPPED IN THE BATHROOM WHEN I CAME HOME LOL!!

every second counts.[edit]

[[ Vineland past the candle shrine that burns on every night for someone she lets herself go like an angel in the snow she lays down on her back down on her back - she goes]] Life is ever so unpredictable and short. Full of surprises and shocks. Thats the reason why we should aprreciate what we have and treasure all we've got. thats why i treasure every moment i have with you b. i really cant believe how things turned out. i cant. it shouldnt have! i want to hug pho. give me time to digest this stuff. its crazy. work was fine today anyway but im getting some sorethroat signs n stuff. (._.) erm ya.

hold me close cos i need you to guide me to safety.

another working day. 2 down, 3 to go. yawns! my legs ache like nothing esp when i bathe and walk. My dear sister, Crystal has been complaining alot about the standard of my written English in my blog. She is being English crazy for quite some time now and has been telling me my written English is atrocious. She aspires to be a lecturer and wants to study the English language in NUS. She even wants books on English for her birthday. Crystal, i am going to kill you. A blog like mine is for people to rant daily and say anything and everything they feel like not having to care about anything else. Some other blog or might i add, blogS, like yours, is for you to write long 700words paragraphs about whatever you are going through at the moment. Rewritten several times to perfection, or at least the best you can before publishing it. In any case, if you cannot stand my blog entries then very simply, don't read it you nitwit. HA. stop telling me my English sucks! If want to tell me that, when you get into that course you want to go into in NUS then tell me alright. I admit my writcomm result sucked wahaha. i admit i have punctuation errors. Your English grades in psle & olvl is still one grade below mine. lol. STILL, i want you to know I LOVE YOU and NO OFFENCE at all and PEACE YO. AND, my blog entry today is about this cos i have nothing good to write about today HAHA. a boring day = 9 30am- nelmo wakes up. 9 30-11am- eats brekkie, watchs telly. 11am-12pm- prepares for work slowly. 12pm- leaves house. 12 30- arrives and starts work. 5pm- break. EAT! (really hungry by now.) 6pm-9 30pm-work. (fold clothes. stone. stone. arrange. ZZZ) 9 45pm- HOME SWEET HOME! 11 30pm- laptopping. i.. i...(._.) stoning at work gives me alot of time to think about random things like the time sheet i just typed above. LOL. and omg, every single minute passes like a sloth at work. i feel like a snail with salt sprinkled on top ..this means agony by the way. then that screen tv thing replays the same reel of adverts and song. chen weilian, play his song, bon jovi, his new song, some female singer concert, AND, ayo technology. loled. hearing 50cents start rapping every half hour or something then ayoooo by jt. last time was the sweet escape over and over again. *crumbles.* okay this seems like a pretty long post. this is the first time im not talking to the people near me at work. usually i talk to those on either side of me but now i only talk to the shoes aunties whom speaking of which one of them gave me a choc today haha! just before 5pm meaning i was hungry so when she pass to me i was really happy hahaha. OKAY SO. OUUTTTT.

my boy is a lollipop. lets make it a cherry one @ that. (:

WA HOOO~! im home and legs are tired they are screaming at me as usual when i work. i think i wanna wear specs to work tmr man. omg the cold air strains my eyes and contacts and they got reddish and dry. sighs. and i NEED my jacket gahhh! totally froze today until my nails purplish and had numbish fingers la. stupid humongous air condintioner. grr. jacket jacket jacket. happy that u feel better benny! er i dont quite know what to type already cos its pretty boring etc et cetera et cetera haha the king and i. anyways im going to bathe then sleep soon peeps tts all for today. Z.

no i wont wait forever

whatever im feeling now, i cant write down and i cant say. i will try not to care.

if music was the fo0d for l0ve, then play on- williamshakespeare.

Everytime I ask if this would be the last Why am I still talking to myself Hoping you will have the keys to my cell Every song might calm the weather But it just draws me deeper How do I get out of this I think~ I never will  went past grandma's old house & wept then fainted. got up and wept again. T_T went to Lime flea market @ *scape today. got a bag & a pair of jeans. saw sher & her friend zer while leaving the flea. =D walked around cine & heeren. spending quality time with my long time no see "daddy". miss her so. omgomg she told me she's 172cm alr la WTHHHH haha so tall. seems like SP is not very nice and she gna start school again on monday. :/ tiredTIRED im so very tired. i want sleep. soon.

a cuddle a day

i fell in love with the girl at the rock show she said what & i told that i didnt know flowers, eyes, black, white, sepia, lace, brown, wood, fur, water, stone, glass, marble, city, scape, lights, sky, clouds, stars, velvet, music, stereo, discs, checks, notes, books, magazines, breeze, cool, snuggles and cuddles, words, lyrics, sounds, art, illustrations, ink, pictures, images, photography, camera, views, points and finders, perspective, l0ve, feelings, warm, mushy, breath-taking, butterflies, fluttery, sweet, scents, you, me, we, us, loves, more, graphics, leather, picturesque, green. (: went to plaza sing today with danna-san. caught Underdog. "Have no fear! Underdog is here!" hahaha -_- benny was tired so we went home early. before that, bought missy dohnartz for the peeps i love most hahaha. that includes me. x) im sure i have more to say but im tired. da jie bought me a wear @ home dress yesterday. SUPER cute. till next my people.

home

another day passes. thursday is still a day away. now whenever i get bored at home i resort to clearing up stuff haha. so far i cleared my school stuff shelf, my underbed and my tiny desk in my tiny room. finally got space to put my lappie hahaha. but bad thing is - cannot eat while using lappie now cos its in bedroom! (nooooo, my food!) lol. i have also resorted to cooking. zz. lunch only cos i dont do dinner folks. lmao. its my perfect weapon against people i dont like. hahaha. kidding. listening to dancing in the moonlight. oooooh. everybody's feeling warm & bright its such a fun & natural sight! feel happy! (: saw some pictures from last time.. fraser hill last dec.. our last few visits to grandma's old house T_T ahh, the memories. the food are funny. curry yesterday from a pre made packet which was too salty. truth be told i cooked too little rice hahaa. so i made beef. -_- anyways. i think im going to continue wactching anime now. argh. just sneezed haha! so random ciao.

candleburn

forgot to say my results were ok thank goodness. altho my sister thought that my writcomm and photog grade not good enuff. OK, sian. wanted to post a pic of results but too small. so, 2D Art - B+ Design & Typography- A Creativity & Applied thinking Skills- B+ Photography- B+ Sports & Wellness- PX (means pass) Storyboarding & Storytelling- A Written Communication- C GPA: 3.2955 (upon max. 4) hope can keep the results same standard or if possible higher. nights.

is it you*

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating And Im wondering what youre dreaming Wondering if its me youre seeing -every moment spent with you is a moment i treasure* (excerpts from i dont wanna miss a thing by aerosmith, nice song) Standing on top of the edge it feels like it's going down Everything stays in my mind feeling in a daze on the ground Feels like it's gonna give life's to hard to live anymore I think I've had enough things too tough I'm out the door All in all it's just another day now You're falling down What you gonna do Standing on top of the world tonight No ones looking back at you Stand tall It's going on It's going on It's gonna be just fine You're holding on Holding on today (excerpt from All in All by Lifehouse.) okay la, this is self cheer. to remind myself to hang on in there. life's not always a bunch of roses (: haha now life is still pretty good. Holding on! ^_^ came back from stayover today! had alot of fun bbq-ing cos the people were crazy haha cai ge so nice to keep cooking and making fire at the bbq pit for us slacking on couches with cold air con that kept blowing into my eyes haahaa. watching horror shows only to have it pre stop and the other hang, li qing! your vcd player! LoL the stroll with pammy, cai ge and jj to 7eleven with the newly minted couple also tagging along, pam the nice talked alot haha entertaining me. almost walk wrong way. but its all gooooott. ((: hiding under qing's blanket doing nothing staying awake, dozing off once in a while. the point where we saw the sky getting brighter was bliss. So.Cool.yea. jacky,jj,caige,ray, and pammy left first arnd 7 30am then me,shu and qing were like, woohoo finally its time to sleep =D woke up at 10plus to find a sms. then slept again until arnd 11/12. ate brekkie and lunchie while watching a tale of two sisters. then went homeeeeee. here i am now hoho. omgomg. red jumsuit apparatus your guardian angel. my fav. line = i will never let you fall. i feel tears slipping in my insides. beautiful.  his favourite. lol-ed. (okay that was random) on saturday, somehow i felt super tired & sleepy. woke up at 9am to go expo with mum n sisters. mumsie thought the fair was at suntec and we Went there la. then 2nd sis bf realise its expo. so we had to go back to expo -_- lamed. they go see the fair. me & 3rd sis rot and wait. wth haha really super boring. fortunately 2nd sis bf pass her psp to us Heheh so can play abit to pass time. but its really meaningless. go there to wait for nothing. ah well. ate munchy donut while waiting also.

coming out of my cage & ive been doing just fine-

rotted @ home till 4pm and set off to meet ze gals. dinner @ bugis, tan quee lan strt. or something. Indulgez bistro people. omg super full i was. passed by a oldie shop that sold alot of pary like things. super nostalgic! things we played with when we were young. sho cool. and alot of old school snacks! haha x) trotted off to bugis junction then headed back to bedok/eunos area to collect Monopoly from aloy's house. fyi, aloy is xian's bf. fyi2, xian is my sec sch sit in class partner for 2 years, friends for 4 years, one of my sidangs, among the rest, huiyu,serene& lina whose birthday we celebrated today (duh.) played the boardgame (its the HERE & NOW edition ya'll) near xian's house @ some voideck haha. im a loser at these places i think. its so High-tech. has 'credit cards' and a calculator lookalike, which reminded me of accounts, where u slot the cards at the sides accordingly and punched ze numbers accordingly also. start of game we get 15mil each. i tell you. i havent touched that game in 200 lightyears. haa. lost like a loser cos i passed by serene's property and had to pay 11.5mil zomgxxx. haha, tHen! i didnt buy much property also, they all fast fingers bought all already, then! after paying that 11.5mil i only left 600k la, and owed tax 2mil then this & that cant rmb. serene won she had like, 60plus million wtttheckies. haha, good one ser! (= went home after, last number eight bus. im tired, i showered, i wanna sleep. BBQ LATER! hohoho okay i think my pics are screwed up but im too tired to do more so sorry. lina is the gal in the first pictuuure & pinky + short dyed hair is huiyu. LOVES & OUT.

not like.

ratings: slacking-rotting-decomposing-moderate. on thursday: okay i think ive staying too late each day that when i finally wanna blog @ the end of my day, its already the next day LOL. was being sian @ home. b (which represents baby, ben, boyfriend, boy, baka, bunny & okayidontknowanymore.) told me to do something constructive haha. (-_-) so i went and swept the floor. dont play so much games always okay-(: was making my campbell alphabet soup for lunch & was tranferring the soup to my bowl when the remnants of the alpha's in the pot displayed a letter 'b' in the middle @ me. okay a 'd' was near but i pushed it away. so i looked for 'e' and 'n'. (: i might sleep soon. I MIght uSe Some YOghUrt BEfore the day eNds. go figure ^_^ *friday* PEEPS GOODLUCK FOR SCHOOL RESULTS <3<3 night: dinner with my girls. lina's birthday. i feel bad about it. i try and give my best shot. *saturday* cant wait cant wait. bbq @ liqing's house in the west yo. peaceowwttt.

the "self-absorbed" episode.

so another day passes by with me being bored at home and serial watching dramas if not animes. today was drama. oh the total MELODRAMA-pull-hair-out- kinda thing. my little secret. i like birdcages. ALmighty knows why. cos i dont. my picture of the sky does the actual no justice. blame my phone. haha. okay, so dont, we were taught not to push the blame to others, right? lol sunsets& rises are so pretty. nice. (: so the day has ended since its 12am. i camwhored. blahahahahaha. (: sorry to whoever cos its narcissism but poohoo! the first was frm a few days ago. -check out the four eyes tian ji pic. brings a whole new meaning yopes. my 2nd little secret. my two big front teeth got gap in between! omgee. eeyer. *smiles mouth closed.* i wanna watch anime now. i shall miss lucky star when it ends in the next ep and im prolly gonna rewatch it all over again cos i liiikkkeee. i just dont care (:

i wanna feel you near. spiritually.

joined Facebook today! and mutiply too. haha so, added to my list.. ive now got a friendster account, bebo account, multiply account, and facebook account haha. not to mention the hi-5 and tagged accounts which i dont use and always forget about -_- but friendster is a must and facebook is really really cool people! its got lots of applications to play with like pirates and superpoke. you can also add an aquarium, garden etc, to your account. i adopted a pet! most of them were animals but i dont know why they have a tofu But! just so super nice right *uh huh.* so i adopted a tofu and named it ben. Those who have Facebook acc's please go pet my pet! =D you will earn 5munny anyways wahaha. then i've got crunchyroll, blogger and imeem accounts. and livejournal which i created not long ago but forgot everything about it havent even posted anything HAHA. and youtube acc which i, also forgot. really odd isnt it? im sure lots of us have many accounts all over the web. member of this and that. user of this and that. ho hum, where's me rum. lol. omgee laaa. today is the day when nel is tehe dumbest+stupidest. took bus 70 thrice haha what the right. then walk up and down like some silly fool haha. eeyer. i gross myself out. cant do simple things right. oh noooooooooo. okay. im going to hop around now. (yes, im kidding =D)

best in me.

headache, this is WAR. BENTAN hope u have a good dae @ work. may it suck a lil' less and may the peeps there talk a lil' nicer. *rotts.*

the key to my <3

went to haji lane today with sher, jeannette and aneesa, their friend we are all from NP yo! *proud* but but sher gna leave me for tp next year... ))): like, supa dupa sad. *sighs* the shops were super cool la omgee. wanna buy this & that ya but wait till i strike rich kay. LoL. left early cos i was damn tired. told sher if i dont leave now later i no strength carry myself home le. then she said i carry you la. Wahaha. right sher, prepare to crumble under me frame. =D slept late last night and my legs are aching from all that walking. took alot of piccsss. 99% credits to sher wong mighty photographer, some taken by the 1/3 chinese, 1/3 indian, 1/3 malay lil boy and his cousin. haha, they Live there la! at haji lane! in the shophouses! gah! ((: ok, the boy actually said he was 1/2 indian, half cheena and half malay. i edit for him. Lmao. half. n_n if you really wanna know what i think, i shall just be straightforward. dont need to question me cos these are all just random thoughts. bah all the so called love is just bullshit man. im not gonna believe any of it. love is great but its a scary thing sometimes. and sometimes, i dislike it. i really do. seriously. who cares. i like busrides i like to look out the window i like milo. alot.(: i like to drink milo. theres so many things i could say, but would it be worth it, or pointless from the start. i really like the old phone (see last pic) gna sleep soon. shoo tired. nights ya'll.