random thoughts of the day.

Is this the path i'm supposed to walk, meant to take, the road for me? & words mean little in the absence of actions, but actions mean plenty even with absence of words. However sometimes, words can brighten up your day, mean Alot, and maybe, you can even think of it as, words are a form of action, after all. my picture wasn't fated to be shown. cos the blogger thingy cracked up. guess its too ugly. omgomgggggggggggg. yea. we all have lousy moments. thats when i'll say: - & today its fustration, omg and whatever. i dont wanna sleep.

more shits. chill peels.

" It feels like a billion years- billion cos it has 'b' and ben has 'b'. no million, no trillion.- BUT its been only 120 days or so with noob. i wanna do okay this sem. please please please. &, i dont want to be leader for any more projects man. it sucks. screw leadership. & nobody will listen to me. like, shut up nel. you're annoying piece of shit. thank you. "

haha shits.

sher muffin sneaky took this super 'glam' pic of me. this is last thurs.

thank you is two words. this post has many words.

hellooo. im here to announce my appreciation for all who wished me happy birthday etc. HAHA thanks to serene,lina,huiyu and xian for that day the presents (im now espirit girl with bensie lol!) and the cake! haha and consequently the sms's from you guys on the actual day esp. xian's. haha it was a really nice msg. (: oh and they tricked me! i was making my wish before i blew the candles on the cake and huiyu was taking pictures. trying to trick me, they said huiyu wasn't done yet. Alas! i got cheated and they were all laughing haha. thanks man. x) anddddd, pamela (for being the first to wish me on that day), qinggie, shu shu- we shall meet soon. a meeting other than in school hahaha ;) thanks to korkor (yes yes the best in the world ok.), michael and narith for msg/call. thanks to comments on friendster, esp. Lavina (: thanks to wishes by zhonghe and darryl. both i did not expect haha. very importantly, thanks to my peegie sister crystal who wished me happy birthday in person, in sms, in card, in friendster, in email, in blog, AND in facebook. lol! so hardworking. but it was nice surprise. imagine it. so hilarious to keep opening websites only to find your sister wished you happy birthday. Again. hahahahhaha loves! thanks to my da jie jie Athena the Great for the cute little pair of white gold earrings which is so cute. im happy its white gold cos its nice and it means no ear infection! haha i suspect i have sensitive ears. Like she does too. cant wear cheap silver darn it. not for long anyway. im still gna wear my cheap silver earrings cos i have em' and shall wear em. Last but not least, my dearest bensie poo. For spending the day with boring ole' me. lalala. hahaha. i enjoyed my day! it ish fun walking around with you and talking about lame things x) and using our sentosa cards as redemption card hahaha. seriously. ((: i lufef you loadsss. something about you makes me smile. i love you but i dont know why. gee o"o C: i'll always be right here for you. loves, nel

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sheetload of pics. lina has rom-ed.

omg im a chobits girl! o"o hahaha

Who is your inner CLAMP character? created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Chii According to results, you are most like Chii from Chobits. Innocent, adorable and fresh, you love learning new things and exploring the world, even though it might get you in to trouble from time to time. You are happy in your own little world, and you feel best when you are able to show those around you how much you care. Just remember to "recharge" yourself from time to time and you'll be just fine. Fai 75% Chii 75% Kurogane 67% Watanuki 63% Kamui 58% Hokuto 54% Seishirou 54% Yuuko 50% Sakura 46% Kero-chan 46% Miyuki-chan 38%

captures & snapshots.

social psychology & communication.

i like my personal space.

92 days with my baby love.

confetti has been thrown about by me and balloon released. you're my special boy. even though things arnt always smooth, and your laughter is always extraordinarily audible..i guess that's what makes us, US! =D at times when with you i will say im bored. but when im not with you im (...). i will learn to love evrything you are and i will and do love everything you naturally are. note there are differences in things you are and others. for example i shall learn to love your laughter. LOL. i love you cos you make me smile. i love you cos you make me laugh. i love you cos you make me laugh until i wanna vomit becos we just ate a truck load of food. *You tell in the house* i love you cos you have a hip grandma. *bass guitar!* and. so many more but its gna be between me and you. ((((((((((((((((((::::::::::: YAY! okay enough of the Opening, lets get down to business (lol i love saying this sorry ben ben dont sue me.) so. today was boring day and rainy and lina sent me sms to inform about her ROM! eek! its omg can! im very excite for her and happy. lalala. we shall all meet soon. muhahaha.

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my macbook is dirty. really dirty. i want to send it for dry cleaning. how much would it cost? maybe.. $1.3k? cos i needa buy a new one after washing it in water! wahaha omg. & hor( eeks! im writing HOR!) i realise i sorta dont take care of my lappy cos i always hold it carelessly and put it on tables carelessly haha. i think it has accumulated lots of scratches and bruises already. This has to last me another 2 1/2 years and more. Pray for me. I'm just teaching it to be strong! *protests* Oh what a nice intrapersonal conversation i have here. I even protest against myself. Or something like that.

LoL!

boy, no matter what we go through; you step up i'll step up too.

he's sick of my buzz's x)

hahaha. watched memento. back to front show. screwed up memory man. "do i lie to myself to be happy?" -i dont think so. i lie to myself to keep moving on. i've got life to do; i've got life to do. baby no matter how many or how much stuff i think about, no matter on the bus, or anywhere, with you or at home, alone or with friends, i will still always think of you, cos you're my boo. ;)

1%

reading li qing's recent blog posts.. makes me almost want to cry. and reminds me of things bringing sort of nostalgic feelings, sort of sad feelings, sort of i know it too feelings, many other feelings. a feeling; the feeling. sometimes, i get funny stuff in my tummy. they are something like butterflies... *fly fly* ~flutters away~ she just manages to write such long posts about things she feels. but i guess sometimes her some other feelings are unspoken too. sometimes i wish life was a little easier to live. i wonder what im really here for. and what am i meant to be? *at this point ben might say the world and its people revolves around him lol* recently i dont really have uber cheerful moods. which also reminds me im seeing less of shu,pam,qing and all the rest although we have same soc psy lecture every monday.i feel sorry for sher cos she has to deal with my sianness. but... somehow it just is. gah. i hope they go momento tmr! well. i dont really like to talk lol. there's nothing much to say anyway is there? however sometimes there are loads to say but somehow i just cant get it across and i stumble. sometimes i just say all the wrong words when i wanted to say something else. sometimes, silence is golden. and sometimes, just your presence is enough (: my thoughts are random. and its illogical in a way. i dont think its unreasonable. it just goes in weird paths lol. im bad at teaching. i know it myself and understand but i cant explain things properly to others. tried and tested people. im very sorry and its not that i dont want to help, its just that i wont help cos i cant do it properly hahaa. everytime i try, its not good enough. example, in secondary when trying to teach my friend accounts; trying to explain things to my classmate before test.. and trying to explain soc psy to sherlyn. it just isnt right leh. =/ most times, im thinking of so many things, 1% you guys know. HAHA. 100% times i try to WRITE manually like a diary, i get too tired trying to write out my endless thoughts & feelings that i stop before it ends because my thoughts run too fast and i write too slow. there you have it. my 1% of the day (: current song: is it you by cassie from step up 2 ost (i cant wait for step up 2 to be in movies!!!!! =D) oh & i watched BEE MOVIE today with lollipop @ junc.8 twas funnyy hahaha. he predicted a part of the movie cos it was kinda cliched. bees supporting the plane. the song is it you and pictures are in my friendster. WHEE!

wiggety

so, i finally got my hair cut. yes, look at yesterday's pics hair still so nicely long right. not! that was a wig. dont gimme shocked look people. believe it. dont you think it looks somehow fake? i think i was so good i even fooled phoebe and she prolly thought it was real too! (: HAHAHA. ;) erm yea. personally i think its still too long for short hair. no pics until monday. i superlove benny. yes, i was kidding, Duh. of course i didnt wear a wig -_-

so it was then..

outing after school with my phoebe carmen today! im losing my focus. maybe i dont have much talent in 3d art. my wire sculpture seems meaningless and empty. its like its just wires bunched together. i want my focus back thanks. chatting with pho was great, sipping bucks & eating the dinner we couldnt finish. ranting about various things. (: l0vemypho! & Amp. iheartneb.

random pics over time

retarded lollipop super loves

Life is good because there's you. he says he's real. I say, define real. *shrugs* whats really real wahaha. im not sure either. but why care so much. i will just confuse myself thinking about it. vizzaza ads are super funny. dvfx seems super tedious. oh what have i gotten into. reminder to self-Up &Comin' cg-project IS-comissues ppt some group sheet thing for iac.* volunteers deaf & dumb or smthg* OH AND, remember, remember the 5th of november! V for Vendetta Ya'll! =D nights. peace owt.

V FOR VENDETTA. HE DRESSED FOR HALLOWEEN.

HELLO AND _HAPPY HALLOWEEN_ TO ALL YOU DWEEBS, SPOONHEADS AND GRAPEFACES & ETC PEEPS! (: RAWR. IM SCARY. FEAR ME! ;) vendetta'd today in school. cool.

candy RED

justin's not so new songs gets me hooked. yea i know im slow. always have been but who cares =p referring to last friday art presentation, i was kinda nervous- i dont even know why- i must have gone a tad fast ): sure get lousy grade. referring to today's camera handling test, was pretty okay except for stupid error at start and wobbly hands and framing grossities, rest was fine. so thats three minuses. sighs. well i guess important part is learning from ya mistakes. Life is so empty. Last night was spent talking to abhored architect about crapped up life and parents. Its the shit we live in people. yup. nuff' said. today i like onigiri's. ate two.

HELLOEVERYBODYIMBOREDSOIMTYPINGINCAPSANDNOSPACE.IWISHTHEREWASMOREFUNTHINGSTODOORBEEXCITEDABOUT.OH, TODAYISMONDAY.NOWONDERITSBORING XD. MY NAME IS CHANEL. A.K.A FRAGMENT. yes im in class now but it hasnt started. i was first to arrive(WA, STR8 'A' STUDENT, yea i know thanks ;) ) ZZZ gotta go. p.s i love you

shucks why is today 27th haha, i dont like the number 7. neither do i like 4, or any numbers linked to the two. the majority of this week is crap. thursday was the best. yesterday was crap too. and the only thing that made me happier was my sweetie so sweet wait for me to end lesson. tytytytytytyty. gotta go out later with sher & maybe jeannette. all the way to clarke quay zomg. kinda far eh. its nice when you're here; here with me (:

tuesday blues

i think i know why im feeling emo. its the bloody pms again i think. eew, eew, eew. sometimes i feel like calling sher & asking her what she thinks abt this & that. okay fine, so its my usual thoughts about random things about life but whatever. (im not random, i just have many thoughts DUH) school totally sucks. i suck at cg, can't understand enough, i suck at loc pro, dvcam very confusing & nx lesson have test OMG! this two is enough to stress me out and its only week2! and i havent finished the camille claudel ppt double omg. WHY can't i go to a secluded/isolated island that has everything leisure and necessary i need and rest there. like some modern primitive being. oh God, you make life so hard to live. i hate this emo feeling to infinity. i want to be happy thanks. had locpro @ 8am in the morn. cldnt wake up in the morning. dozed off during lesson. anifdn lecture cancelled. bus-mrt-mrt down to harbourfront a.k.a vivo. bought belated pressie. bought sand paper, plier, sweets etc at daiso a.k.a where everything is $2. bus65 down to grandma's house bus stop where i got my mum to pick me up. got dinner. homed. emo-ed. blogged. im beginning to think my life is so boring there's no meaning in blogging anymore.

monday...blues?

Omg i must be the dumbest girl on Earth; i brought my laptop to school when it only had 22% batt left and i didnt bring charger. i brought a disc of House to watch during free time but i realised i took the wrong one and i'd alr watched this one. S-I-A-N. TKS. sis bf asked if i wanted him to fetch me to school. i was like but my sch in clementi... him: ya im gg clementi. me: !! ok! Hahaha. it took so long omt.

sky.

today is 2mths one day C: because i didnt blog ytd so i didnt say wahas. saturday & sunday slacking. so boring but im too lazy to do reading of textbook/ pwerpoint. why oh why. i can never do the study thing properly. like, since upper sec. my attention span is too short and im kinda fidgety= bored easily= cnt study. and dont feel like+ dont wanna? majority dont like studying, right? sometimes i wonder if i shd have gone jc. seeing those jc people its like.. seem kinda nice. but then again, if i'd gone jc, id prolly wonder if i shd have gone poly. anyway, i think my l1r5 is too high to go to a good jc. in sec school i nvr once had the intention of going jc because that wasnt where my interests lay. good thing about poly now is, no or minimum exams (WHOOP!), meeting classmates & lovely friends plus tofu. my volleyball woes zomg. i now have nth to say.

stars are falling all for us <3

(: i was moody but now im happy again. its okay (: had 3dart today.shucks im really worried for this sem cos im not really tht great at the modules. sher & i concluded tt we only need to bring laptop to school on wednesdays or when needed yayay! cool neh. bus+mrt-ied with her where she left @ tanah merah to go airport study & i went home home. im having trouble falling asleep at night since hols. its really upsetting when you want to sleep but cant and i toss & turn in bed for 500 times before i lose consciousness. argh. latenight chats till the early morn. im abit lazy to post pics of today's product of 3dart so another time kaykaykaykaykay *FLASH WINNING SMILE* LOL omg i realise i've been self psycho-ing myself and self-counseling myself for the longest time lolol. damn and all this while i thought i was just doing plain thinking. omgomg i hynoptise me! zomg!!! sometimes i give myself the creeps; sometimes my mind plays tricks on me. (credit song; basketcase) im one. C: PS thanks qing for the heechul dance vid link! OMG he freaking FUNNY =D PS i love you! *saying i love you a day keeps the emoness away (:*

inconsolable

im..im peeling! im not supposed to peel! i officially dont like car accidents. forget the bad and remember the good (: watermelon lollipops are nice. sherwong came back to school today, she made me palpitate that woman. LoL. sudd come and made me all jumpy wumpy fidgety. take care of your knee stop moving ard so much. =D last but not least iLOVEmybabynomatterwhat. C:

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before i forget, 3movs, nanny diaries (chick flick!), lust,caution, truth be told. rmb to try n watch* self reminder. loc pro was abit zz. remind self to bring jacket nx time!! heh heh, filming heh =D poly textbooks are ex beyond ex. ): anifdn- can you believe it, first class together with the other dvfx class haha! hope its good? c: why isnt anyone blogging anymore?? im depressed i dont wanna blog liao. HEE.

i've been looking for an answer

went to school an hour too early hence waited outside the lecture theatre for about one hour. soc psych was so-so. Same class as t1b2 shu, qing, pam, cai papa, cai jie, bryan, josh etc!! not forgetting me benben (: had early release so 2hr 45mins break till next lesson. lol. intro to cg, liswanto. did some photoshop. omg i dont even understand what he was saying cant catch. stupid computer things ): i was just playing around the tools in it haha. tried my best to ask around when we had to do a short "simple" assignment. i need ultra good listening to survive man. not to mention understanding. *sighs* waited for benben to fin lesson then took bus down to amk hub and caught mr.woodcock. hahahaha, fairly funny. esp. one part- ben laugh until come out of cinema still laughing. i bet he still thinks about it LOL. i still think about 'hee chul choking' LOL, qing's fault! (: thx qing, very funnyyy! ate pepper lunch for din and got all smokey stink. PS B'* *mumble wumbles* played with the feedback form. wrote lame things like Ms. Noob Lol. Age- 40&above. then ben wrote his current fave phrase @ the 'what did you have at p.l?' - 'huan loh' Lmao. ben ah ben hahahahahhaha. crack me up. then i also wrote at the other comments section. drew a hangman and wrote 'this is ben. he laughed @ me today. haha, ben. haha.'yes im obsessed with the bob thing its damn funny. ppl if u dont know look at my friendster pictures. =D bus 22-8 home. showered. am here. am gg off. BTW, my FIRST at pepper Lunch LOL.

idk

sian

in school and its half boring.

littlest things.

hahaha its sunday i camwhored with sister yesterday. haha how funny to say. we look retarded but who cares hehe. momo.

kuronel.

i dont like. people who think they know me. keyword: think. point: you dont. some really do somehow. i once had a friend whom im not close to anymore who could tell something's happened just by my sms's. like whattt, cos i dont see any signs in em. and, some really dont. im not a girl who will never get angry. truth be told, ok, i dont have much to say HAHA. i just wanted to say truth be told lol. there's a new line i like: hide secrets not lies. i cant rmb where i got it from anymore. theres a song i really dont like. graduation. i Know u know that song! why i dont like it? its freaking SAD. wo bu yao ting. everybody wants to go back in time cos we realise, as we grow older, everything else is that much annoyingly complicated,sad,less innocent & carefree as before. although its also sometimes that much happier (:. *contradictory* if i cld go back. i'd be sec 2. i think. its hard to decide. perhaps upper primary also can =D. randoms rule. (: shan't tell! :) muahahahaha. monday- pls let sher go school thankyouthankyouthankyou. movie with baby pls thankyouthankyouthankyou.

chivalry, monday, tuesday

Everybody, today, i shall talk about chivalry. i chanced upon this while reading a magazine. LoL. Evrybody knows about chivalry, no? Well, at least i bet girls do. Guy's walking on the outter side of the pavement i think is the most basic. Some may not know but to me it is a form of protection. The roads are dangerous people. The magazine article talked about how the author realises being a gentlemen is the way. He then also said chivalry could sometimes backfire for example, when the man opens the door for the lady, she might think of it as an insult meaning she can't open the door herself. Hmm, interesting wahahaha. Think about it! (: Okay so why haven't i been blogging the past two days or so? Because, i was busy celebrating some of my good friend's birthday! hee. Was supposed to go to Pam's house on monday to paint the shirt to be given to shu hui but i couldnt make it cos my mumsie was going overseas. i guess im going to get something else for her. its darn belated! )): *sorry to shu~* Evening time monday, went to me the girls @ taka to get xian's present. She had a hard time chosing what she wanted lol. Then we bused down to PS for cartel. Funnily, none of them ate Cartel before except me. So, i'd say it was a nice exp for them (: the cake was superb. Serene bought it and it got everybody's attention when the staff brought it out for us. Xian bought a cake from the same store before for her good friend too. The cake was the shape of a noodle bowl- with noodles and all of course, cool! =D my dear yamo is now 17. SO, gr8. everybody is 17 except me. once again, youngest. LoL, its time to be used to it nel nel. hahaha. After cartel, bused down again to cineleisure cos they wanted to sing k. they are the PRO's man. i go there to listen to them sing and sing lame songs once in awhile. with my kiddy voice, the only place i'd dare to sing out loud is either in the bathroom or when nobody's home. Tuesday was devoted to sentosa with TIB2 peeps for shu & qing's birthday. got woken up by sis to lock door as she left for work and got super grouchy cos i was Super sleepy (slpt at 3am.) Got up at 8 30am then left @ 10 for habourfront mrt. met shu in the toilet (coincidentally) LOL! i think i surprised her hahaha. went outside with her to see caige,pam, jacky & jj alr there. my ben ben is like, Late cos he only woke up when i called him lmao. i thought he slept early the day before to wake up early on tues! lol! darling boy you are so silly -_-ll. haha~ everybody got super sunned. all of them got wet, swimming around in the sea except me, cai ge and jj. MUAHAHA. many of us got esp shu, got tanned & red. whee~ played the water, monkey with vb (omg super tired) and other things with the vb. buried shu in the sand, i hung on the coconut tree, sat in the shade cos the sun was freaking sunny. however, luckily it was sunny on tuesday cos today, wednesday is like, rain prone (((((: fun in the sun and happy birthday pretty shu hui( sept 23), sis crystal(oct 5),liqing(oct 5),and yamo(xian) (oct 9) (: soon it'll be me! and twinsy cos same birthdate lol! although its diff cos twinsy is one yr older. -_-

always always.

meowie. went to ecp with blend today! ate @ some ichiban jap place for lunch first, then starbucks-ed. and walked to ecp (Haha, the expressway.) sat at the stone table stoning (thats why its called a stone table, duh.) the sea breeze was strong and constant and messed up baby's hair wahaha. =D sorryyyyy and for the sand too. eek! lol. band tried to take a retard picture of me. i posted it, its the one of the park. HAHA, he very pro right right x) went home after awhile. gee ((: yuppp, i was happy yay. when we were walking to the bus stop through the underpass, i saw this thingy which i thought was somebody's hair la! but i realised it was a mop. omtiannes. it looked abit creepy also. ~_~ went to tampines mall after meeting up with sister and bought her birthday present. then homed. (:

thats when i love you

LOL. if i said i was the 2nd most embarrassing girl on earth, no one else would say they were the 1st. i am the 2nd most embarrassing girl on earth. i've said it. i laughed out loud like a retard. i laugh non stop like a retard. i say lame things like a retard. i do stupid things like a retard. i say wrong things all the time. and sometimes at the wrong time too. i embarrass myself. TODAY- i lose my balance on the bus today and semi banged into people (note: plural). i laughed semi loud at a weird spider man minature thing that could "climb" around the wall and the seller looked at me amused. i nearly lose my balance on the escalator going down. and then laughed semi non stop about it (because it was embarrassing). serene said i was a funny girl cos i use an ouran high school host club card holder (lol). i nearly slapped my face into a branch of leaf when i came off the escalator cos i was looking at my doughnuts. and when i looked up and got surprised i lean back so i wouldnt bang into it noticing also that the two guys walking by was looking at me (duh, cos i was banging into that leaf!!). after losing balance and banging people in bus i also did a funny jerk when the bus jerked violently again and i wanted to badly so laughed but i couldnt because everybody would think i was crazy so i clamped my lips together. WHAT AN EMBARRASSMENT! all in a day's work people. thank you. *bows* huiyu serene and i were walking around bugis street and looking at little miss t shirts. huiyu was talking to serene while looking at the shirts while i was also looking but wasnt paying attention to what they were talking about. then i said i liked the little miss stubborn and turned to face them and huiyu was holding the little miss stubborn shirt ! she was also telling ser she like it haha! can you imagine! saying u like something and turning around only to see it! haha chemistry my dear friend! hi fives. but i got a little miss curious in the end wahaha. my fever is Gone. yayss. but weird throat thing is still there. water;strepsils;water;strepsils. LoL. i uncovered Two pictures!! one from sis crystal which is a picture from last day of camp. HAHA. how gross. lucky its far away. no need for guesses im holding the flag. SPOT IT. Other pic is koped from bettina's friendster lolol. sec 4 class photo!!! omg aw. ~_~ again, try spotting.