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YOO! went to erm. century square today to have a quick lunch with mumsie. thought i was gonna be late but i reached there early instead heehee. since the rest wernt here yet i went to the OG to see ex co workers (: and my tian tht place i still as boring as i left it. Always got little people one :/ they reached and we started taking pics hee. whipped out my love. killed them digi cam's wif one shot. MUAHAHA. chanel totakky Owns. (: JUSTTT KIDDINNGGGG. walked here ther everywhere left right all the types. took this that & yea. HAD so Much Fun im loving it. Laughing is the best thing on Earth yet (: got tired and thirsty so we went macs. FIRST pic i took with them!! yayness ((: let me rmb today. 30th June 2007. Haa. Them again while starting (: distilled wine. (Port) sis gave us some to drink last night. it has a slightly sweet taste but its also slighty difficult to swallow. the taste quite different from normal wine but i think normal wine is easier to swallow Lols. yeap yeap. then shu and bryan had to go off first so pam, ben and i went to take more pics. shu forgot her digi cam battery lol and she needed cam so i lent her mine and she took it along with her to some event of hers later. walked all over again and found really nice things. so sian. should have gone cheena town for man made in the last photog assignment. there was so much colour, balance, lines shapes etc etc evrything. oh tian. i feel so cheated LOL. we went to e chinatown point toilet. when me and pam got out, an aunty suddenly tell us, "Liang mao" o.o cunning no!? ha ha ha. didnt even see her la. or the station la. after that we went home by mrt . alighted at eunos n when i was walking to e bus stop guess what i saw. rodent trap! oh tian it still exists?? the last tymi rmb it was when i was still very young living at jalan chengam. dad used to put it at the back yard n when the rodent was caught he used boiling water to pour over it, How GRUesome. *shudders* just as i was taking this pic, met Desmond who was walking by n called my name haha. guess he was with a bunch of friends. so anyway, went home n ya you dont need to know the rest of thee boring stuff (: meeting sher tmr! transformerrs more than meets thee eyee haha

Chanel can smile again (:

DESTYP was shifted to 9am today (: Yaynesss. test was crap man, should have read through once more before the test cos i couldnt remember two of the thing. reminds self* Leading and counter. die already al. ): went to eat with zenna dolly n ya qi then went library to waste some time. Survived till 12plus then got increasingly bored. was semi conscious until 2pm haha. then went to Cheers to meet pam, bryan and ben. decided to go junction 8 to watch TrAnSfOrMeRs [ robots in disguise] i didnt know that the autobots sound quite fierce actually. especially when they were getting the specs. i thought they'd be nice nice goody n stuff lor. the movie is quite nice, but to me abit messy la. but really cool. the robots fight so messy la cos they themselves are already so messed up with all the cars parts going on. can you imagine all the layers of effects put into this for all the explosions etc??!!! i think quite crazy la. and at one point i think i heard an effects sound, like some fireworks sound LOL. after the show, didnt manage to finish looking at the credits then we had to go cos pam was running late! (eeks) so pam left first then we stood around outside for awhile then me and bryan took mrt while mr. ben T went for the bus. went to get my plastic cover and some old chang kee at tampines (: went home and had raindrops falling on my head (._.) yea so basically like tt . And i wonder why today indian men keep sitting beside me on the bus. tts the reason why i dont like sitting on the inner corner in bus.. cos scared weird people come and sit beside me LOL. this morning on the way to school this guy sat beside me and he had this toxic smell and i almost suffocated. Luckily we were nearing school by then. Then on the way home also. but this tym was still ok la. yea. i should look up and appreciate life. Be happy nel! ((: TAG AND SUPPORT THE H.C.C!! just click on the tagboard to apply. (: all kindness is gr8ly appreciated thanks.

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Oh tian. had school till 12plus doing Live Drawing. i think mine sucked mans. i got tired and just drew whatever. i got an a minus temporarily so far. Hope i can keep it up or do better. went home and scribbled some notes for tmr's test. prolly meeting t1b2 tmr(: missed them! went for Vb also. got camp shirt! ran 2 rounds instead of 3. did some shuttle runs. did some serving, spiking and digging practice. played game(s). drizzle shizzle. home was sian. waited for 23 like almost 15 mins. zz. got phone thanks to sister (= Thanks Her Much Much Much Much Much. its a nokia 6233. hope its aight! not aight also aight (: sis troubled herself to get it for me so must appreciate.. i learnt that now... anyhows. glad i finally got a phone to use again! the feeling is so *shiok* cos i can call people, sms and all again. wheehee. out for nowww. tmr destyp test! *hopes hard*

chocolates are thee man, man.

goodness. firstly, why is everybody around me falling sick and all now?? like, whats up with that? sher got food poisoning(thank goodness its not other things ((: ) narith telling me he sick (Again) zp tell me he tired. same as the previous time la, when suddenly the people around me going i dunno what. and tmr my grandma's gg to the hospital for some eye operation and my mum's gna go with her. sian man. and these people telling me all these, its only making my headache worse ): well one thing i can say is that Take care, get well soon and please take care of yourselves people. Moreover, i haven't decided whether to go VB tmr or not. i dislike making decisions man. and photography! and oh ya, remind self to study for Destyp test thats on friday. so must study tmr. oh tian. sianed. today's already wednesday night. random thing: i dislike groups of people hanging around void decks. they creep me out. be it chinese or malay. some are ok but some are not. some are just doing their things. some make a whole load of noise and laugh so loud like thunder and their eyes follow you as you walk past. wt- at least, go home and hang out la. Home also nice what. Got food got seats got tv and comp etc. :/ today i saw a PRI sch kid on the bus. His shoe tips had '369 is fun on it', the 369 in the symbol way. i was like, whaatt? worries for kid* i mean, only primary school leh. @_@ goodness i dont know whats up with the world. and my day was not that fab either. Bball and Cats was ok i guess. Let off early at 11am. Reached home only to find i forgot my keys. Plus i dont have my phone so i walked under the hot sun to find a public phone to see where my mum was. called my sis too. sian la all come home so late. mum, 5/6pm; sis 8plus? in the end i loitered around then went to parkway to walk around and back. feels so stupid la. seriously boring. mum finally came home at 5plus *WHEEPHEE* ya so Urgh. see what i mean. my family said that i was quite an emo kid. never really smile or laugh. i think i know why now. because i was born out and got disappointed at the world i saw. "Oh. So this is it." Look at my world now. Is it anything worth smiling or laughing about? Thought not.

hmpff. ):

storyboarding was ok i guess. kept falling asleep. found classmates laughing at me HAHA. i turn around and saw their heads one; two; three looking at me. lmao. what, people dozing off look so funny meh ha ha. He showed us video clips of examples of storyboarding with Shrek's storyboard. also video clip of some Mtv thing to show pre-production, production and post (or smthg like that) showed all the stuff that he said hopefully we'd be able to do at the end of our 3 years here. (which was all the effects stuff). Did perspective drawing. the wind was strong. caused my drawing paper to fly up and catapult my innocent eraser off to timbaktoo. met sis & her friends and lunched at SIM. went back and collected camera. almost forgot about writcom at 3 and wanted to go home. suddenly remembered about it when i was on the way to bus stop lol. writcom was short. cos all we had was the consultation then hanged around with atq, ya qi and zenna as they did their poddie. clemmy was also around but she was watching some vcd. then hanged around with clemmy at atrium and went for vb. met fellow vb-ers on the way :D vb was ok.. had to run 3 rounds bleagh bleagh. they taught us spiking also. not easy! ): what three steps thing then have to swing arms and the last step have to jump with BOth feet (usually we have the tendency to use only One foot.) yea. all at the same time. focus on steps and arms. ee. four steps considered foul. careful careful. touch net consider foul. careful careful. goshie me. ya anyways. went home i guess. nothing much. yawns (: yea and rmb to donate to the H.C.C peeps.

Monday...?

Poor Sher is hospitalised. called her in the morn. hope she's fine, hopefully its just food poisoning. have to go school myself. Sian. have to go school w/o phone sian times ten folds. T_T will my day turn around? * * * Was late for photog. arrived 11 16 lol. teacher ask where is my laptop. *eyes widen* need laptop meh?? gha! ya, your presentation - ommmgggg i totally forgot about the presentation!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haahaa. anyways, he needed macbook pro's to connect. and he had the cd's which contained the ppt so *phew- wipes sweat* rambled through the presentation. I had to go First cos they said the last person to reach goes first. Lol, righht. was bunch of nerves. but luckily it wasn't too bad (: writcom was fairly ok compared to all other lectures (: its nice listening to mr. Wong talk. yup. equally nice as listening to my da jie talk. While he was talking, it suddenly reminded me of Hannibal Lecter( did i spell it wrongly? :S) where the s.a Starling( once again, did i get it right?) lol yea, where she was always listening to hannibal's recorded talks. Interesting aye. (: Funny how anyone would even name their son Hannibal. :/ Anyways, so first day back to school was sianzational( quote ben.T). Trip home was boredom. Bought my din din. and attempted to exercise when i got home. tmr- vb. will i make it! i think my sis alr bought my phone. its not one i wanted i think. but she said she couldnt contact me (Duh.) and all the confusion cos she didnt know which was the one i wanted exactly so i think she bought it anyways. Well, i think its the one that looked kinda (._.) but ahwells. better a phone than no phone i guess. As long as it aint some ancient model phone. with antennas. ha.ha.ha. ya so. tHats AbOuT It yA'LlXxXx. LOL. :S p.s whoever reads, please help the H.C.C( Help Chanel Charity) by Tagging. Thank You! *flashes a wide smile :D)

i forgot to post this.

you know how daniel radcliffe was a cute young boy when he filmed HP1? and how we watched him grow less cute as the years go by? yeap. todayi saw him on the covers of Lime magazine and i must say he looked quite ok there *smiles. with that white shirt and all. and the i spotted ...Chest hair. * :/* pouts. i dont really like chest hair.

chanel is the youngest. HAPPY BIRTHDAY...

MUMSIEPOO!!! ((: hope you had a nice day today :/ chanel has non existent b***s. was looking at my pics and felt demoralised lol. went to Orchard hotel's the orchard cafe to eat lunch today(its a buffet) ate and ate and omg. super full. *faints* eat and eat; grow fat and fat. i think i have to go exercise tmr. *pulls face.* eh.. i dont really have pics to show here cos they're all kinda random lol. like pics from days ago. :/ yea so i guess boring post la. (: boring person you know you know, yes you know (: tag people! so boring you know! T_T

what a girl wants

ok so its 1am now so its actually saturday but im blogging about friday. woke up around ten. played computer and did writcom after much grossities. went to school around 1plus and reached around 2 30 to return cam cam and hand in form lols. then went to bugis to get something then home. was abit late cos by the time i reached home was about 5plus. saw lina at eunos mrt bus stop too. ser came first then ah hu *still like to call her tt* lol. thanks ser for showing me! (: thanks ah hu for helping out! (: gna be mumsie's bdae. WHEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. im getting sleepy manx. gosh golly me. btw, smiling pasta is not bad. milo makes me full.

thursday*

got scolded by mumsie poo at 5am this morning lol. for sleeping on the sofa. Hahaha. sleeping with music from my lappie hurhur. gotta do writcom. i really really dont like it. :/ someone do for me please? ((: and good luck to ben for filming today! may everything go smoothly for you today then. its 12 53 AM of 21june and im freaking bored. ok, i've been bored-er but yea. writcom writcom i dont like writcom *Sighs.* the burden of it. please remind me to stop buying clothes that are black/white/grey. lol i need more colours in my wardrobe. i need more colours in my life, in fact. hurhurhur. read sher's blog and the part about dream boyfriend lol. firstly, -he must be taller than me *** -preferably dark cos im dark :/ -err..not too plump and not too scrawny. -black hair. -doesnt smoke!! *** -specs are ok, since i have em too. -dressing wise, i'll know it when i see it. :p well all these are just appearances. -nice, preferably gentle. -caring** -loves me and likes to announce it LOL. actually, why think of such things at all? you'll know it when you see him. you'll feel it. (: peace outtttt. HAHA. i like to wear big shirts at home.

little things.

i dont know what im thinking now. officially lost. lol and nel is getting fatter. i want to puke now. im fat and skinny in all the wrong places. i wanna go emo again. cam whoring.

Bangles Are B*****s. (:

ok you guys might not get me here but what someone says is true. why give yourself and others stupid excuses? the actual truth is not all those reasons. and they are what they are, excuses. just to give it a go. i think thats good. that makes sense. but if it was me, i would say. sorry i not ready/ dont want to be in a relationship. or sorry but the space in my heart is taken. lols. which is true. [edit](i was just saying this as an example as in what i would say if i didnt like the guy that way . yeap.and/or if i liked someone else already (: ) i dont ask for being together. or having a special relationship. all i want is to get to know you, help you through times of need, listen to your rants, make you smile, make you laugh, get to know your world. what is it like? what do you like? its like an interview if you will. im sure ive said before, seeing people happy makes me happy. and sometimes, not just happy-happy. sometimes, i get the feeling that some people are just deceiving themselves. they havent found the meaning in life. they dont know what they want. they havent found true happiness. its all a facade. they arnt really laughing. they arnt really happy. empty laughters and false smiles. you can feel it, when they are laughing for the sake of laughing. its delusion. but please, do be truly happy. do what you want. go for it. your dreams. and by this i meant good things not devilish things. i've always wanted and try to do what i want. but sometimes if cant all be true because of life restrictions like, family and money. and also, good mental sense, responsibility and capability. i know it seems like i got over him really fast. but the truth is it happened over the course of our relationship. we may have only broken up nearly 2 months ago but the unhappiness,pain,shock i felt in sec 4 was unbearable. im not really strong, sher. you just didnt see me before. i may seem strong now but you didnt see how i crumbled. you didnt see the anger and sourness in my eyes. you didnt know the snakes in my tummy that were rolling all around all the time. but i rather you think im strong. cos i do hope you will be strong too. and i will be strong. i will i WILL. ****************************************************** okay enough of random thoughts. lets talk about what i did today so far. woke up at about 9plus today. wanted to sleep more but thought better not. played comp until abt 10 and called sher cos i know she'll be sleeping. hurhur. and im right lols. then dragged my gross self with gross hair down to school. slacked around at cheers and atrium munching then to library for some podcast magic. puked when i first heard me test test record voice. LOL. then did it properly. last part was best HEEHEE. but shit man i couldnt do it cos i was LAUGHING TOO FREAKING HARD TMAO. well i did start but i couldnt end then teresa prolly got sianed haha and she said it for me all while i was still laughing, hahaha. i totakky cant act nor record when there's things recording me. Haha. (: tm-ing was cancelled cos she took too long and it was getting late and i had to go eat eat. hee. yup. photos of neighbour's house i told you they moved. and and. just now when i went to the coffee shop to eat with my eldest sis, something damn funny happened along the way. we were walking and talking when this motorcyclist just sped past us and he was blasting indian music. then we were like. wa (cos it really was loud) and she shouted out: That doesn't sound good!! LOL. i wanted to roll over. haha. and then she added to me; 'polluting my soundscape..' hahaha. not meant as racism but mainly cos it was loud and he just sped past like that. talked as we ate. i do like talking to her (:

yo ho. channie and me.

ok so here's what i did today in a flash. woke up with difficulty lol cos i want to sleeep! went to kaki bukit's borneo motors to accompany mumsie to service the car's air con. then went to amk. walked along the school. took pics. hoped the people in school wont suddenly come and think that im terrorist taking pics of their school to bomb. :/ cos im not. went to old house. took pics also. didnt take the actual house cos got people living there and they were like, moving around, doors open. and awhile later they had visitors. i guess they had some celebration. :S walked back. went to the marketplace there. they never sell cardcaptor sakura cards no more! damn sad. was so looking forward to buying them LOL. walked around until i reached the bus stop before. went to amk hub which i saw on the way. walked around. went home. called phoebe and asked her to go cut hair with me. had trouble deciding my haircut. now fringe is totally disgustingly short. i puked in my stomach and fainted in my skin. lols. aight. im too lazy to upload pics man ): yes yes. im a lazy pig and ya'll know it. :/ random thought(2): i wish i have more chances to talk to you. i wish i could talk to you. (: soon. hope u dont laugh at my hair.LOL. off to watch SMILING pasta (:

if you're not the one- daniel beddingfield.

random thought: whenever i see you my heart smiles. i think of you. unconsciously. reached nee ann porlee at 12 30 today. got cam cam. didnt bring memory card. *CRIES* decided that we would just use sher's cam. took 151 then 5 to town. went to weelork first to get sher's postcards. i saw and liked two interior? design books and bought them. what a money waster i am. *HugE SiGhs* shudders further. went upstairs to apple shop cos i wanted to get the laptop cover. but but. they ran out of stock ))))))): i saw those plastic covers for macbook pro! dammmmnnnn coooolllllll. BUT. its crazy $89? sobs. and i dont own a mac pro. eeyers. so ok. poor chanel went to paragon with sher, stopping by taka to admire them brands. she told me the sculptures included those at taka. i didnt believe but she said correct what* (cos the sculptures were supposed to be at paragon only) so ok lo.. take take. sher saw ben,jacky and bryan and nudged me. didnt expect to see them there.lol. so okay, took them taka sculptures, hopped over to para and took them sculptures too. and me told sher. Hey! there's 6 sculptures here what! *counts* sher: really meh? *counts, no what. * lol. counts again* oh my god sher you made me take those taka like a fooollll... eew eew eew. LOL. then she said: i wnated to keep those what. lols. why am i friends with her lol *giggles* ((: sher ar sher hurhur. had a few detours: that shop sher had had to bring me to. and the skate park thing behind somerset mrt. and i realised i am such a gross no life frog in well girl. chanel has never gone sentosa much= not very beach babe-ish yeaa chanel has never sat in a cable car nor played bumper car *no childhood lols* chanel has never been to skatepark. chanel has never gone ice skating. chanel has never gone clubbing. *??* chanel has never done this nor that. eeyer. ): anyways.. mrt-ed over to cityhall and walked that long stretch to marina sq. and met da 4c dudes and dudettes at macs. went to swensens. ate. took some pics. went to esplanade. sat. played a lame game*lol* took some pics. went hommeee. no pics yet cos nelnel forgot her memory card and she dont have a handphone hence no phone camera. Having no camera sucks!! it sucks even more when you have a perfectly good pro(er) camera in your bag but no freaking memory card. *sobs* might have pics soon. oops. forgot to mention that i really like esplanade rooftop at night. LoLss. and marina sq has thee shops i like so whee. (:

chanel. a million ways to mispell it. (:

omgomg............ supposed to go out with sher. but my mummy Wont let me. show black face. so ok lor. dont go. see im such a good daughter lols. no handphone= no contacts. i hardly remember anybody's number. lol tsk tsk. handphones thwart people's memory skills. with the contacts list people dont bother to remember numbers. i dont want to buy a new phone. (: feeling damn random since yesterday so i wasss ttaaalkkkinnngg likke thiss for a mommnenttt................ hurhur. rabbit chan came to my dreams last night. He told me he was fine and told me that i have to move on. (: totemo daisuki rabbit chan. a few days/weeks? ago one of my neighbours moved. it all happened in one day. i was in the kitchen and i saw men(gross) moving all over in the morning. by the end of the day before i knew it; they were gone. whatt! no goodbyes? ): it felt kinda empty at first cos although i didnt really know them well and we didnt communicate much; everytime we saw one another we would acknowledge each other and smile. and their adorable 3 little kids, always called 'jie jie' when they see me. omg they are so guai LOL. once they even pressed my doorbell to ask me math questions. unfortunately, being the noob i am, bad at explaining things hence cant be teacher, i was kinda lost. i tried my best to explain to them subtraction and addition but i dont think they really got it. LOL. so much for teaching. i think they were malaysian chinese..they always went back during the hols. and the two other guys who lived with them; one i thought was kinda creepy and the other was better..tall and not bad looking but never talked to either of them. and and. tHey Smoke. :/ i used to look through the window whenever i was in the kitchen to the direction of their unit and see if they were home lol and when i came home and exited from the lift i would look to see if my neighbours were all home. i dont know why i did these things but i just did. and now, whenever i look at unit 06-03.. they are not home. only closed doors; locked gates; uncollected newspapers and empty shoe racks. *sighs* worst thing is no goodbye! haha.. it may or may not be a good thing. and now i wonder, if i will have new neighbours. so far..nope. gotta go to school tomorrow to collect my lovely camera.then down to paragon to take art pics. dunno if i want to go 4c gathering cos very impotantly, i dont have a phone. and the thursday thing keann asked also. hix hix. maybe im just not a social butterfly lolllll. tuesday i may be accompanying mumsie.maybe buy ingredients. maybe go amk for walk back to the past. wednesday prolly meet sher and teresa do art podcast. prolly buy remaining ingredients with ser(ene). dont mix up this two lol. sher= sherlyn; ser= serene. thursday do?? photography? but i dont have people to take light! anybody? attica event? stayover sher? *my tianness* thurs is a mess of unconfirmed events. friday is go back return cam to school and meet ser come my house day. saturday is family lunch day sunday is relax and prepare for school reopen gross day. and. today- watched forrest gump today. got too bored. went for a quick swim. got up after 5 laps. so there. my next week in a flash. huge sighs. i dont know why. i miss all the people. itrytostayfarwayificouldbecauseifeargoingnearewouldmakemefalldeeperfaster;whydouhavsuchaneffectonme?

im little miss unhappy emo.

i think i lost my phone. ))))))))))))))))))))))))))):

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wee. spent today at home again. was almost bored out of my non existent socks. went to take mum's korean vids to watch. found one called A millionaire's first love. it was really cheesy, lame, and retarded. it was really sad. *bawl eyes out* ya. my eyes are now sore and stinging(sorta) just uncomfortable la. going to wheelock and paragon tmr to check out laptop case and take our series of 6 sculptures for 2DArt.. i have no life! ghaaa. i realised i havent been ice skating before. and cable car-ing. i swear i will take cable car to sentosa next time!! chanel han the frog in the bottom of the well. (: im developing a headache so shall go snore soon. i dont know if i miss school or not. so dumb right. but i rather treasure my schooling time hurhur. if not i may regret when i need to start working. speaking of working.. maybe i should get part time job again. thats more slack but still can earn money haha.. i wonder if i should cut my hair.. yea neways boring times= boring entry. therefore, sayonara; oyasumi (: to express my disatisfaction of the day. happy looking at my messed hair and bespectacled face *pukes*

setsunai na; kono kimochi.

okasan, o genki deska? (._.) vietnam suteki? watashiwa daijobu dayo. (: in the school's library now. i found a book, its called The Art Of KIKI's Delivery Service. A film by Hayao Miyazaki, yes, the person who did Howl's Moving Castle (: i think the book is so cool, but im not done reading it yet.. it shows some of the art processes and some screen shots of the film. whee (: supposed to do writcom's info essay outline now. doesn't it just seem like i'm constantly doing writcom? i mean, just yesterday i was also chiong-ing writcom, and now im doing a different set of writcom again. gross right. monday have para exercise to hand in, thursday got essay outline to hand in. and i have to do it now cos tommorrow have vb camp. urgh. why on earth did i sign up to go!! its like wed,thurs,fri taken up. could have met up with phoebe on wed. could do writcom over the span of today and tommorrow then slowly stroll to hand in on thursday but nooo, i chose camp. why didnt anyone stop me. ): writcom haunts me. i cant wait for it to be over. and i hope i pass. also, im damn stupid. the whole of this week so busy alr and i still booked the camera for weekday. wth. either shouldnt have booked or book weekend what. omg im the stupidest dumbest and most bimbotic girl on earth *smacks face*. now i cant go see sculpture over the weekend for art and have to go next week. my tianness. Other than art podcast, i also have photography. hix hix.. why does holiday seem nothing like holiday? (yesterday, i went to 2a's bbq at east coast. there was very little people so i just took it as a small meet up with my gals (: then while they went off to one of our classmates house; i went to michael's house to meet phoebe and narith(his birthday). i thought it'd just be the four of us but who knew nene went to bring two gals along. *mood totally rocketed down.* i almost went home instead but i thought of phoebe. so i went. That stupid michael. House freaking nice. shit man lol. i also want ): yeap so i spent most of the time around the house with phoebe,my dear girl, instead. meeting her again tommorrow. yeah*) went to school at 12 plus today. i remembered that i forgot to take my handphone with me when i reached my house downstairs. so i had to go get it again. and it was raining. i thought i was going to be late! was supposed to meet ben and shuhui at 12 15 at cheers. i didnt know li qing and jacky were coming too lol. apple@ fms was kinda boring. i guess its cos its the first meeting? anyways, after that i went to meet sher to do writcom and yeap that brings us back to the top where i said i was at the library hee. i decided not to go camp anymore..for various reasons. on the bus home..i suddenly thought of POC3. Davey Jones said countless times; 'Do you fear death?' making spit fly everywhere and his slimy tentacles squirming all over. lol. Then i asked myself that question and i wondered, yea, do i fear death? Or do i fear being left behind? As some say, the one who suffers most aint the one who passed on; but the one who was left behind. all alone, someone dear to you left. is that feeling worse than death? otosan, o genki deska? i went cycling with my eldest sister also. we rode to changi coast i think, thats what she said..i dont really like riding on the road cos the cars kinda scare me. The first time i rode on the road i fell and caused a big scar on my knee which i cant really notice anymore now. maybe i've grown darker. eeks. yea. could hear planes taking off 1/3 of the time. then rode to some other area where we rested for awhile and had something to drink. then ride back again. this time is more tiring than the past. although i feel better about the cars because there were many people with me- first time was only me & sis- but i had to keep up with their speed. moreover they were already going slow for me. talk about the pro's and the ultimate noob-me. yeap so now, im sticky and tired. my butt and legs are tired (hurhur) and i need to bathe so tata for now! song for today: (from hana kimi.) 演唱:S.H.E　曲:李志清　词:施人诚 怎么办 Oh 怎么办 为什么　你为什么　老是把空气全都吸光了 害得我　你害得我　在你面前呼吸急促需要叫救护车 别看我　先别看我　我的脸红就快要爆料了 没什么　哪有什么　我是绝对不会承认我喜欢你了 怎么办　感觉甜又酸 偷偷爱你　快乐又孤单 怎么办　爱却不能讲 你真讨厌　不来帮我的忙 你怎么可以这样　笑容打败太阳 甚至比我还要更好看 我虽然无力抵挡　但是日子还长 总有一天换你为我疯狂 为什么　你为什么　这样不讲理的就出现了 害得我　你害得我　连仅有的一点矜持优雅全都毁了 靠近我　别靠近我　到底离你多近比较好呢 完蛋了　我完蛋了　我整个人眼看就快要不是我的了 怎么办　感觉甜又酸 偷偷爱你　快乐又孤单 怎么办　爱却不能讲 你真讨厌　不来帮我的忙 你怎么可以这样　笑容打败太阳 甚至比我还要更好看 我虽然无力抵抗　但是日子还长 总有一天换你为我疯狂 (为我疯狂) 怎么办　感觉甜又酸 偷偷爱你　快乐又孤单 怎么办　爱却不能讲 你真讨厌　不来帮我的忙 怎么办　感觉甜又酸 偷偷爱你　快乐又孤单 怎么办　爱却不能讲 你真讨厌　不来帮我的忙 你怎么可以这样　笑容打败太阳 甚至比我还要更好看 我虽然无力抵抗　但是日子还长 总有一天换你为我疯狂 怎么办　感觉甜又酸 偷偷爱你　快乐又孤单 怎么办　爱却不能讲 你真讨厌　不来帮我的忙 你怎么可以这样　笑容打败太阳 甚至比我还要更好看 我虽然无力抵抗　但是日子还长 总有一天换你为我疯狂 怎么办　感觉甜又酸 偷偷爱你　快乐又孤单 怎么办　爱却不能讲 你真讨厌　不来帮我的忙

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SNORES. im freakishly bored. i h8 writcom. actually, doing the assignment would be alright if not for the stupid CITATION. extremely troublesome. and i get confused by the many websites im using. and it makes the paragraph look stupid. anyways. i went to meet sher at tamp inter this morning then we went to the library. i could hardly get work done. i think i really have short attention span (SAS) lol. suddenly, SAS this term just reminded me of maths, that Side Angle Side thing. the one where we had to explain why the triangle was isoceles? i think? pardon me if im wrong cos in the first place, i didnt like math and thus i sucked at it. it was a true surprise when i got b4 for o level. i was almost expecting a fail since i have been failing since lord knows when. people always telling me to practisex3. but being the lazy me, i didnt want to. i have returned almost all i learnt in sec school to the teachers already. the only maths i was good at was probability and matrices(??) and i've forgotten them too. duper sian. but ah well. i remember when i first stepped into BNSS, i was a nerd girl wearing specs with gross hair. I hardly talked to people (harhar.) Then somehow, in sec 2 i guess, i got layered hair, and in october, a boyfriend. Its funny how true it is to say a bf affects your studies. thats bad bad. Whats been done, can't be undone. Then on to sec 3, i got contacts(my then bf hated my specs |:) when i first stepped into sec sch, i hardly knew hokkien. I was constantly asking my good friends what did those words they just said meant. Even though now i'm not much better, at least i know some (: sec 4 was a whirlwind. my once A subject in sec 3, accounts, was getting more difficult and i was getting more unwilling to learn. Thus my accounts results slipped. I was sleeping in half my classes, accounts, bio, chem and humanities. haha. and usually i'd be sleeping with a pen in my hand. My science teachers always teased me about my 'art' of sleeping. Once in chem, i even fell asleep with correction fluid in my hand. Mrs. Yeow said something like, wa, can even fall asleep while holding the liquid paper. I somehow heard it and immediately pretended to be liquid-ing. Lol. that was kinda embarrassing. My notes were always half blank, and half filled in and the blank parts had numerous lines drawn by the pen in my hand whilst i was sleeping. hurhur. yea and when o levels came, i felt like i was totally in no mood to mug. At first in the earlier times, i would always go to my friend's house to slack till 6plus before heading home. ex introduced me to O2Jam and i was soon hooked. i kept playing it at home,until my sister's boyfriend thought that my exams was over. But of course, i did study abit. Especially for bio, which i liked most, i studied at xian's house all the time. Her little niece was always there to 'accompany' us. In other words, disturb. LoL. Sad thing is, i still didn't get a grade that would have been perfect. My geog and ss notes were all over the place. It was in total mess. So i didnt really study. Luckily, it was yet another shocking grade (: i think im really lucky. i guess if i had studied harder i could have gotten lesser points and gotten into business studies. but then, i really couldnt concentrate at that time and if i were to be in BS now, i wouldnt have met all the friends i have now. Sher,Shi fu(ben), Li Qing, Shu Hui, Pamela, and Jacky. They really are a fun bunch and the reason i like school. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh anyway. what a long rant. back to today. i kept singing ' iiii can give you gatsbyyyyy~gatsssbyyy~x2' to sher and she was like ' nel, pls shut up, im gna smack you now.' LoL. Or smthg like that lol. we tried to do the paragraph until 12plus then she had to go off already so i headed to orchard to buy ex his present...i walked for ages la. Finally i decided and bought it then went home and headed to opposite of my house to buy dinner with sister. yea. anyway boring day la. yesterday was spent entirely at home, using computer and watching the shorts i borrowed from sensei. i liked Sons alot. i watched the interview of royston tan too and i felt like crying..i was hanging laundry and listening and it was like '...' (._.) now i want to watch 15 too lol. I watched Happy Birthday later too. i didnt expect the same effects to happen on me as when i watched in the cinemas then. The ending got me again. bloody sad. ): total sianness. tmr i have to go to school at 12 to meet sher. Complete and hand in assignment, take the camera i do miss so then prolly go to ECP for tt bbq depending on the time. hix hix, i dont feel like gg vb camp anymore. i dont feel like gg anywhere anymore. i feel like being alone. Except if its going out to take photos either with classmates or going out with sher/t1b2-ers. the camp is like,almost 4 days la..imagine the things i could do. i could slack lor. LMAO. i dislike making decisions haha. i have trouble making them half the time. i just wish i dont make the wrong decisions. hurhur. this is Say You Love Me song lyrics, one of the songs i like, taken from one of my fave dramas, It started With A kiss(er zuo ju zhi wen; ISWAK); sung by lara& jason ((: Jason： Say That You Love Me Jason： Say That You Care Jason： Say That You Love Me Jason： Say That You Care Lara： 遇到对的人 是种缘分 Lara： 我不得不承认 女生还是该要有分寸 Lara： 你要去瞄准 你要的人 Lara： 不再被动的等 Lara： 送上嘴唇变成你的人 Jason： 我认识一个女孩 Jason： 她天真活泼可爱 Jason： 在等待有个人 Jason： 可以给她一身三千宠爱 Jason： 不需要很有钱 Jason： 不需要很帅 Jason： 她脾气古怪有时候包容 Jason： 有时候你必须忍耐 Jason： 为什么她竟然爱上他 Jason： 她到底在想什么 Jason： 她是否忘了帅哥不能爱 Jason： 是什么让她乱了方寸 Jason： 不知道该做什么 Jason： 我想说这怎么可能 Jason： 她舍得 Jason： 舍弃自己的尊严与爱好 Jason： 女追男的游戏 Jason： 一点都不害臊 Jason： 一天到晚在他身边又闹又吵 Jason： 只为了能够被他瞪一眼就好 Jason： 看她在这边而他在那边 Jason： 她想被他捧在手心上面 Jason： 而他装作视而不见 Jason： 脑袋中却浮现 Jason： 眼前就是她在微笑的画面 Jason： 而她说 Lara： 遇到对的人 是种缘分 Lara： 我不得不承认 女生还是该要有分寸 Lara： 你要去瞄准 你要的人 Lara： 不再被动的等 Lara： 送上嘴唇变成你的人 Jason： Say That You Love Me Jason： Say That You Care Lara： 女生还是该要有分寸 Lara： 遇到对的人 Jason： Say That You Love Me Jason： Say That You Care Lara： 不再被动的等 Lara： 送上嘴唇变成你的人 Jason： 从头来过 Jason： 要快乐不要难过 Jason： 不要谎言要承诺 Jason： 她和他的爱情绝不懒惰 Jason： 就算有不安定的因素随时出没 Jason： 她也能排除万难 Jason： 和他一起度过 Jason： 度过这漫漫长冬 Jason： 长冬后满面春风 Jason： 春风吹到他心中 Jason： 心中就是无限的感动 Jason： 他不自觉注意 Jason： 她任何的一举一动 Jason： 才发现自己 Jason： 早已不小心沉溺其中 Jason： 他知道 我想是他知道 Jason： 所有她的一切他都知道 Jason： 他看到了她如此掏肺掏心 Jason： 心里早就想把她抱紧 Jason： 不管未来艰难险戏再多 Jason： 只管现在能够相爱再说 Jason： 想一起完成的事情太多 Jason： 就怕时间不够 而她说 Lara： 遇到对的人 是种缘分 Lara： 我不得不承认 女生还是该要有分寸 Lara： 你要去瞄准 你要的人 Lara： 不再被动的等 Lara： 送上嘴唇变成你的人 Jason： Say That You Love Me Jason： Say That You Care Lara： 女生还是该要有分寸 Lara： 遇到对的人 Jason： Say That You Love Me Jason： Say That You Care Lara： 不再被动的等 Lara： 送上嘴唇变成你的人 Jason： Say That You Love Me Jason： Say That You Care Jason： Say That You Love Me Jason： Say That You Care the vids. im ouutttt. wish me luck on writing writcom. :S

dear diary... men in white

yo im home yo. lol this morning i missed the school's bus stop. i fell asleep on the bus and happily missed it. so i had to get down, cross the road and take bus back again. lucky for me, the bus stop was quite clearly opposite and the bus wasnt very long. followed by Destyp. this time it was pretty easy, we did typography. but he keep talking about balance @_@. lesson came and went and i went to check out the camera and book for the next two weeks. i waited for my movie crew (lol) at marina square. they finished at four plus. i wwas there since twelve plus? ask me what i did you say? err, walk and walk and walked? LoL. i bumped into sher and her friend at zara lol. then later on i bumped into sam and jeannette and friend. bought the tickets for 5 15 but they couldnt make it so changed it to 7 30. haha.. really enjoyed the time with them (: a rowdy bunch that makes me laugh! ((: they are much better than my own classmates la..haha, the things they do and say are seriously funny. compared to my classmates' lameness and sarcasm. theirs is different in a way. yea. the only one in class i can actually click with is sher la. how sad right. but its enough ((: neways. the show wasnt really all that. quite disappointed for my first local film by a director other than jack neo. i guess its cos he attempted a 'comedy'. yea. wouldnt really recommend people to watch. it didnt seem to have a true meaning and it got kinda confusing what with 'david' and sunny being paranormal investigators and that part where the badminton guy threatened david was very what the (-_-) yea. i keep almost missing stops cos i fall asleep lol. similar to morning, i fell asleep on the way home and i woke up just in time to see and got out before the doors of the mrt closed. then on bus home, also same, suddenly awoke to see my house in front of me and the bus already stopped with its exit door open so i hurried out lol. but nice eh, i woke up just in time. (: yea. been having a headache. lack of sleep plus headache= chanelnel want to go sleep. nights all. Title: M2M - Dear Diary lyrics Dear diary, Something good happened today He finally called me by my name I didn’t know how to behave What to say or do I was so confused Verse 2 Dear diary, I wanna talk to him again But whenever he is with his friends He keeps trying to pretend But I already see The way he feels for me Chorus What can I do? Tell me what can I say When do I let him know I feel the same way? How can my feelings be so hard to show when I really want him to know Verse 3 Dear diary, He wrote some letters on his hand It wasn’t hard to understand I figured I’m part of his plans But now I’m in his heart I don’t know where to start Chorus Bridge You’re my secret hiding place Where my private thoughts are safe And just one look and he will see What’s inside of me snores*

sometimes i can smile; but its not my true smile.

i woke up at 8plus today lol. supposed to meet sher but that girl is terribly sick ): im not very happy about it! her homewrk's gonna pile up! :| dragged until 12/ 1 plus when i left the house. dawdled at century sq. then mrt-ed to bugis to meet my fellow t1da-ers. found out that the rest had already taken their fair share of bugis so shannon and i headed off to take the pics. we walk and walked....took and took. i oohed and aahhed.... and... we got . kinda lost. LOL. we ended up at dhoby ghaut mrt. we walked there, yea. (bugis to dhoby ghaut wth??) haha. seriously, is singapore that small? o_O or is it just me lol. then we went to cityhall and esplanade. and walked and walked. and took and tooked again. prettay interesting things i saw. but some was boring no doubt. hope i got all the photos i need cos otherwise, im screwed. lol. (._.) i dont wanna be screwed. (._.)'' shi fu was also at esplanade doing some project with his classmateys. so he, i and his friend went to watch POC3 after both finished our work. i was hoping not to get lost. (-_-) i cant say i have a good sense of direction. For years i didnt know how to walk from cineleisure to far east. i dont even know if i know now HAha. i do know how to walk there from orchard mrt though. lols. well, for me,i was watching Again. haha. at least this time somehow it didnt seem as long as the first time i watched it. took many random pictures on the way you see. my battery went flat on me when we were finishing. i exchanged batt with ya qi. hurhur. im walking away. this darn cute rabbit. with its pink fur. grr. rawrs. it has a sad smile cos it has to pose with that retarded face of mine ): sorry rabbit-chan. yeap, be jealous of my eyes lol. Jokes. allow me to self praise once in awhile haha. honestly, i dont really like to be praised. hmm. well, if anybody wants to praise in terms of school work*ahem* just gimme an AD okay. ((: i'd definitely accept it. HA.HA. i wanted to jump in and swim away. until i saw my humongous thigh. ): i heard A+ blood type people gain weight first at tummy and thigh areas. which probably explains skinny arms and turkey thighs. )): can you see what i see! those slipper lines. see the difference and how i got darker. all in a few hours in the sun's work. BoO. ima go now. peace ouutttt. btw, one more pic. haa. stolen from sher's blog. i want to go crazy. i dont want to do school work anymore. ):

perfumes;shoppings and sunset.

i keep having crap concidences with people today. crap crap craapppp. borrowed two dvd's from ben-o today. i now have 3 dvds to watch. eeks haha. tmr have to go out. die. abit unplanned. sher wants to go do work with me and i agreed to go photo taking with shannon?? but i think take photos first better. i hope sher is ok with that. (._.) hm. 6/5/2007 8:34:57 PM ︻┳═一 Narith ︻┳═一 : ya always busy 6/5/2007 8:34:57 PM ︻┳═一 Narith ︻┳═一 : what do u expect? 6/5/2007 8:35:00 PM ︻┳═一 Narith ︻┳═一 : if i am not busy, then free to do what 6/5/2007 8:35:17 PM i want sleep. (: i h8 assignments. &yes we all do.: HUH? 6/5/2007 8:35:41 PM ︻┳═一 Narith ︻┳═一 : huh what huh, u don't understand wat i said ah 6/5/2007 8:35:58 PM ︻┳═一 Narith ︻┳═一 : later i bitch slap u back to the chin dynasty can anybody tell me wth is this for. bloody rude. just suddenly come and say a bunch of stupid weird stuff like this? if it was really him who wrote it i'd be damn sad/upset/angry. im hoping it isnt and is some cousin of his of something. grr i promptly clicked away the convo box. iddiiots. then again. why would his cousin know im always busy? eee. i h8 him. sianned.

i want to fly away*

firstly, bless sher. really. prolly going thru a hell lot. and trust me, been there done that too. crushed hurt lost. sher are you feeling what i felt? if you are, stay strong aights. dont turn your back on the world. my mum once said those words she said to you too. on the phone. when i was in sch. she said i was wasting her money. ask me go die. im past that now. sher be strong, really. im sorry i felt kinda helpless today. cos seeing your sad face, suffering from sore throat and i didnt even know what to say. i couldnt make you feel better. bad friend me! ok i shall not say cannot be emo anymore k? cos its prolly half impossible now.. just take your time to cool down. the world has not ended, life doesnt suck. its just the way its going now and it depends on how you see it. dont think so much now cos there's nothing you can do. take your time to find yourself again ok? no point struggling now, you're so weak. please please get strong, get up and stand again, settle everything you are doing make sure they are flowing. smile. then face your problems once more. if there really is no cure, then sher, im sorry you gotta move on... if its fate or destiny, it will show (: dont worry too much okay? see you're so weak now! stop falling sick ): you are worrying all your frens and including me. we've only been friends for like, 2 months but you've become one of my important friends. and i do treasure my friends. as for your mother, i guess she just said those words in a fit. dont take it too hard on her okays? heehee. my mum and i have quarrelled before until we didnt talk for days. HAHA! after all, she is your mother. she didnt mean it. sher just get well ok? much loves from me (: CHANELnel. dont play with my name! hurhur. *hugs sher.* neways. yesterday i went with sher to bedok reservoir to see the paddle championships. i woke up with a bloody swollen eye wth. but not super bad la but gross enough. i wore shades the whole time i was at bedok res. lmao. like some idiot. the sun was super hot la. got tanned even though i applied sun block Twice. saddened* i feel like an Indian now ): \she taught me the art of laughing toes. LMAO. after that i went home and rushed my storytelling assignment. then went to mum's bbq thingy with her friends. *rolls eyes.* haha. came back at 11plus? typed out my story and sent to leslie. and went to my much needed sleep. dry ice from the ice cream cake box. heehee. i woke up at 8 45 today. shd have woken at 8 15! school was kinda boring. got nervouse that i would go school alone in uniform but luckily i met jeannette and sher.. which i normally dont meet on the way! :D i couldnt keep up really in photography. ): photshop lessons. ): then writcom was a load of sianess. cos he showed us all the schedule of the paragraph assignment and the informative essay. wth. i think i lack time management skills. waa. went to pass blen his thumbdrive then went to KAP macs for dinner. i ate practically nothing todae except for a 90% of a packet of strawberry marshmellows lol. so i ate macs. (: i keep getting mozzie bites. and out of habit i keep scratching. then the skin breaks. = sianed. no dengue pleassee! )): well, i guess nothing much more to write.. trying to check out more jap singer/bands now ((: chanel flys away into the blue orange purple skies. i love sky.

dear diary*

did i mention i like seeing people happy? i like making people happy. (: i like seeing my mum happy. i dont like my mum being bullied. *grr.* but sometimes i go against her. hehe. thats my privilege :P i like seeing my friends happy. i like making my friends happy. i like seeing my sisters happy. they all make me happy. ((: HAPPINESS. EUPHORIA. from where? *** *** *** *** *** so much to do! so little time! so many things wanted to buy! so little money! so many things im waiting to happen! so far i dont see. ): ahwells. it shall be a little fairytale in my <3 (: aozora no namida is freaking hard to sing. not to mention remembering the lyrics haha whee. blood+ is abit draggy. should cut to the point more. the show reminds me of resident evil. right. bought SD card today! (: i want a new mp3 ): i want to fix my mp3 ): my poor 30gb. i might be left with a 1gb-er. ): my mp3 has memories. my sentimental piece of gadget. my handphone has sentimental value. i will never ever trade it in. if i ever lose it i will really cry. its time to say goodbye and hello. its time to hand over. its time for you to wake up; and surrender. OHMAN. i need need to write storytelling. hix hix. i dont want to sleep alr. i want panda eyes.(NOT) my sister says i have eyebags and dat im having lack of sleep. am i? do i have eyebags! o_o is she kidding me. maybe i do too much crap and not enough serious work LOL. eeyer. have to get crackin' zzz nel's oouuttttt.(i realised my bus stop etc aint that scary bah.im just paranoid.lol) p.s's sher..dont worry. the world will come around one day. please smile.no emo. otherwise u cannot go cheers with me. the boat will reach the bridge. (: ok? sorryyy mummy ): i will accompany you next time..promise. if you ever go again. sorry. ): dont be angry or sad... Thebluesky'stears: aozoranonamida.

aozora no namida. poc 3. blood+ ?

im sleepy. writcom test tmr. haven study hur hur. watched poc3 hee. kinda cool (: kinda sad for elizabeth(keira) & will (orlando) i think i prefer johnny depp in the previous 2 shows. some parts of the film is like funny la. yawns* oh oh. i wanted to express my thoughts about dragonboaters lol. i do do respect them in a way; their hardwork in training. i hear them from my house, training at the reservoir. my house is 6th floor, the reservoir is in view. i can hear them lol. i wonder why, when i went to walk in the reservoir they didnt sound much louder..arnt they supposed to sound louder? yea and, but. lol. sometimes i cant help but snigger at them. no offence ((: DB'S! PEACE YO* lol v('_')v walked in far east again todae with sher. poor girl health not good ar. eeks. nights all.